Saturday, 26 February 2011 ; 1:31 pm
I can only picture eu in my head. Why? I don't know.
February was a hurtful month for me, got beaten up, legs swollen & problems with this affair.
Weird 'cause I feel like I'm wasting my time sharing problems with sayang, then end up being ashame to face them, while eventually I go to school, smile, laugh, jokes & act silly, while the rest of my sayangs knows that I'm in deep pain. Struggling to survive the pain.
Always giving the happy-go-lucky faces to people. Smiling to others.
Jyeah, I'm good at giving false faces. Who cares if I'm hurt or not. The only people who cares are my true Sayangs. Why would outsiders care much about my life when eventually they don't even know me that much? Stupid!
Okay going out later, to Ida's house. Karaoke with Ida, Ezah & Qina!!♥
Finally!! I'm gonna meet Qi! I missed her soo freaking fucking much! Hopefully today I can get things off of my head for awhile.
Seriously, I know but I really missed Alep. hahaa Random much jyeah mann~
Fighting with Farhan on fb, he and his Yellow shoes. Goshh~ irrits!!!
Saturday, 5 February 2011 ; 10:34 am
Suhail♥
Min♥
Aliff♥
Weird thing, last night I slept at 4:05am in the morning! & woke up exact 8:30am!!
What's wrong with me today??? Am I like overly excited 'cause some asked me to be his valentine?? Or izzit just myself??? Okay random updates.
Last night was a blast. Text all night with this awesome friends. Suhail, Min & Aliff.
This guys couldn't stop making me laugh all night long.
Min text me soon as he gets me number. hahaha Talked all crap stuff, like I'll be spongebob, he'll be patrick star.
Then Suhail was there for me all day^^ Such great friend. He gave me advise, he gave me strength, really lucky to have me Mr Sotong^^♥
Aliff, awesome new friend, was blushing and smiling all night long, he even asked me to be his Valentine^^ I mean Valentines day is like 2 weeks from now, & he's asked me this morning to be his Valentine date. hahaha I couldn't stop smiling when I think of it... XD
I wanna keep this smile till Valentine!!! But somehow I wouldn't want to go to school with a weird smile to everybody, like I'm freaking Happy!!! Honestly, he's cute! A dancer & a skater. I can't describe him personally. But I can only describe him as he is.
I believe Febuary would be the sweet month I can ever have!! A LOVE to keep, a FRIEND to treasure & a BLACK PAST to throw♥
Totally Missing NY1101E I miss the laughter!! Goshh!! Having a quick chat with Asyraf, talked about this ASSHOLE who just hurt Mas feelings!! Fuck that Son-of-a-BITCH!!!
Wednesday, 2 February 2011 ; 9:52 pm
A parents love is something worth fighting for. But the pain that we've caused them is just too much. They scold eu because they love eu, they control eu because they love eu. But some people seem to not appreciate it. I'm thankful for having such great parents who knows how to control their children♥
February starts. January was a hard month for me.
"My heart was broken again. My heart couldn't stop crying. I feel like screaming out! I'm shivering in pain. Everything seems clear now. I don't know if I can hold this any longer. January was a painful month for me, I don't want February to be just like January. :(
Just make friends with Ida(s) classmates♥
Get to know Alep^^. Well need I say more?
I don't know much 'bout him, but he looks okay to me. :)
Today is all about Pain, Laughter, Love & Lies.
Friendship hols alot of "Sabah", I know where I stand, & I only deserve one person. I can't be jealous over a friend, But I can only pray for the best^^♥
