Saturday, 21 May 2011 ; 12:59 pm
It all starts with a simple text message, then intro here & there,
the first on the phone talk. I remember the first time eu texted me,
I remember eu asked Ida eu wanted someone special in your life,
& it happen to be me. 02042011, this date was our first day we
know each other. Eu gave me this shocking text, I didn't know it was eu
until eu told me it was eu and eu got my number from Ida. Since then we
became close to each other. We became special friends till 11052011.
The next day was soo unexpected. 12052011♥
We became an official couple since that day came. Eu've shown me how
important I am towards eu. Eu cherished every moment that we've spend.
I've never asked for anything from eu, but eu gave me what I wanted.
Eu even said that eu're willing to spend all your money on me just to make
me happy. But eu know that I don't need your money, I don't need nice stuff,
I just need eu & your love♥ Mohamad Firdaus Bin Abdul Rahim.
Thank eu for making me open my heart & eyes to eu. Thank eu for giving me the opportunity to fall in love with eu. & thank eu for being the best boyfriend,
bestfriend, apek, laling, husband, bitch & the best man in my life♥
Thursday, 7 April 2011 ; 9:21 pm
I miss my Apek soo much :(
URRGGHH!!! His bz with his NS stuff but never fails to text me, soo freakingly sick right now, and I've made him worry 'bout me. Sorry hunn~ Love eu many many♥
Cute right? heheheee Credits to Si hui I fell in love with this picture♥
It reminds me of me walking in the rain all by myself. =]
; 7:20 pm
His love is like this wonderful rainbow rose. He poured his love like a rainbow. I sheared a tear when I found him. I felt his love, I felt his sincerity, he never fails to put a smile on my face. Even though I feel far from him, but the love was never gone. Feels soo weird since his serving his NS, I thought, I thought I'd give myself some time to think 'bout this before my love developes deeper. But I was late. I fell in love with him since I first saw him. After a few years, finally, he became a part of my life and I'm soo thankful to have him by my side. I once said this to myself, why rush? Why not enjoy your life as a single person? Why do I need love? Now I know why I'm soo restless and full of deep dark heart. I didn't let my heart open, I didn't let the air in me, I kept myself wayy long in that dark path. He's love is priceless. & if I hadn't found him, I guess I'll still be locked away far from love. Thank you Firdaus^^ For stepping into my life♥ Totally April is the day for me.♥
Tuesday, 8 March 2011 ; 7:16 pm
Tears, laughter with ♥ just now, finally got his attention. Learn how to skate just now^^
Fell like almost every minute when I stepped onto the board, hahaa.
went home and forgot to exchange back my bracelet with Faiq XD, talked to ♥, laugh with ♥, smiled with ♥, ohh mann~ Love him^^. It's such a happy day for me, pressure a bit 'cause ICA test is coming, not even focus, Mr Chai has been nagging with us to focus on our ICA.
Story time!!!
I thought of giving up on him, but as time goes by, talk things through with him, I realize that it's not him that I'm giving up on, it's my feeling that's been hanging and pulling me down for not continuing to love him, I once made a promise to get to know him for 3 months, support him, show how much I ♥ him, and to prove to him that my heart is just for him and for no one else but him. But sometimes I do wonder, why him? We're not even that close, really hard to contact with & sometimes we have a feeling to love & just let it go. We even had the same feeling like both of us are not even there in each others heart, we're not even there to support each other, it's like we've stepped out from our love world. But I just wanna know one thing, just one thing. Why me? why did he want to know me? I mean I don't even know him and he just asked Ida to help him get my number. Well eu got it now, & why do I feel so far from eu? January, we were so closed to knowing each other, it's like we're being serious, February came, things had gone a distance eversince eu didn't topup your pp8, like I said I'm not blaming eu. February was the challenging moth for me, were my life gets a lil' bit shakey. Be became far, our love are begining to disappear, we even texted about it, and eu said it's a hard feeling to explain, but why is it easy for me to explain it to eu? & eu even agreed with what I said. March came by, that's when we dicovered that something needs to be done, in a split second, we became close again. I appear where eu are, & eu appeared where I am.
I just hope this feelings won't go away, & I want it to stay like this.♥
Abbas finally changed his FB profile pic! haahaa Me, myself & I, Ida, Abbas, we took a silly picture of ourself, dare each other to make it as our display pic, & it's freakingly awesome! with all our silly faces, huahuaa.
To do list:
- Shower
- Eat
- Pack me bag
- Eat again
- Facebooking :)
- Wash my face
- Apply medd at me BUBBLES^^
- Go to my room, hug me lover, kiss me teddy, close my eyes & await for the next day^^
Being random? Ya I guess so. huahuaa♥
Saturday, 26 February 2011 ; 1:31 pm
I can only picture eu in my head. Why? I don't know.
February was a hurtful month for me, got beaten up, legs swollen & problems with this affair.
Weird 'cause I feel like I'm wasting my time sharing problems with sayang, then end up being ashame to face them, while eventually I go to school, smile, laugh, jokes & act silly, while the rest of my sayangs knows that I'm in deep pain. Struggling to survive the pain.
Always giving the happy-go-lucky faces to people. Smiling to others.
Jyeah, I'm good at giving false faces. Who cares if I'm hurt or not. The only people who cares are my true Sayangs. Why would outsiders care much about my life when eventually they don't even know me that much? Stupid!
Okay going out later, to Ida's house. Karaoke with Ida, Ezah & Qina!!♥
Finally!! I'm gonna meet Qi! I missed her soo freaking fucking much! Hopefully today I can get things off of my head for awhile.
Seriously, I know but I really missed Alep. hahaa Random much jyeah mann~
Fighting with Farhan on fb, he and his Yellow shoes. Goshh~ irrits!!!
Saturday, 5 February 2011 ; 10:34 am
Suhail♥
Min♥
Aliff♥
Weird thing, last night I slept at 4:05am in the morning! & woke up exact 8:30am!!
What's wrong with me today??? Am I like overly excited 'cause some asked me to be his valentine?? Or izzit just myself??? Okay random updates.
Last night was a blast. Text all night with this awesome friends. Suhail, Min & Aliff.
This guys couldn't stop making me laugh all night long.
Min text me soon as he gets me number. hahaha Talked all crap stuff, like I'll be spongebob, he'll be patrick star.
Then Suhail was there for me all day^^ Such great friend. He gave me advise, he gave me strength, really lucky to have me Mr Sotong^^♥
Aliff, awesome new friend, was blushing and smiling all night long, he even asked me to be his Valentine^^ I mean Valentines day is like 2 weeks from now, & he's asked me this morning to be his Valentine date. hahaha I couldn't stop smiling when I think of it... XD
I wanna keep this smile till Valentine!!! But somehow I wouldn't want to go to school with a weird smile to everybody, like I'm freaking Happy!!! Honestly, he's cute! A dancer & a skater. I can't describe him personally. But I can only describe him as he is.
I believe Febuary would be the sweet month I can ever have!! A LOVE to keep, a FRIEND to treasure & a BLACK PAST to throw♥
Totally Missing NY1101E I miss the laughter!! Goshh!! Having a quick chat with Asyraf, talked about this ASSHOLE who just hurt Mas feelings!! Fuck that Son-of-a-BITCH!!!
Wednesday, 2 February 2011 ; 9:52 pm
A parents love is something worth fighting for. But the pain that we've caused them is just too much. They scold eu because they love eu, they control eu because they love eu. But some people seem to not appreciate it. I'm thankful for having such great parents who knows how to control their children♥
February starts. January was a hard month for me.
"My heart was broken again. My heart couldn't stop crying. I feel like screaming out! I'm shivering in pain. Everything seems clear now. I don't know if I can hold this any longer. January was a painful month for me, I don't want February to be just like January. :(
Just make friends with Ida(s) classmates♥
Get to know Alep^^. Well need I say more?
I don't know much 'bout him, but he looks okay to me. :)
Today is all about Pain, Laughter, Love & Lies.
Friendship hols alot of "Sabah", I know where I stand, & I only deserve one person. I can't be jealous over a friend, But I can only pray for the best^^♥
